Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Yeast and flat tires...

So, I have a yeast infection from all those antibiotics I've been on. Oy vey. Long story short, I started a 3 day course of Monistat last night. I won't elaborate anymore.

I came out of work today and the car that parks on my passenger side was gone already. Had that car been there, I would not have noticed the flat tire on my rear passenger side. So, I called my husband and he rushed over with the air compressor he bought this summer that he has been DYING to use. He isn't happy about the flat tire, but he did seem awfully excited to use that compressor! He filled it up and drove it home, with me following him in the truck. He will examine it more closely tomorrow.

Over at Pink Lipgloss and Prenatals, Rebecca painted her nails green for fertility and good luck for her transfer, which was today! To follow in her footsteps, I will be painting my nails green for my transfer! I ordered OPI's Fresh Frog of Bel Air today! Here's hoping it brings us both lots of luck!!







Tuesday, November 29, 2011

It's the little things that make me happy...



While IVF can undoubtedly be a stressful, emotionally draining journey, I believe it will be what I make of it! So, I've decided that I will do little things to keep myself feeling good during this process. Last night, in preparation for my baseline today, I decided to paint my toenails. They are a deep purple with a glittery top coat! So pretty! Then I remembered it is no longer flip-flop season (while some beg to differ), and my toes aren't exposed. So I decided I would wear fun socks! These ones are from Little Miss Matched. They even sparked a conversation with my doctor today. Whatever it takes to keep the situation "light", as laying on the table covered in a paper sheet with my lady bits exposed is stressful enough!

As for my baseline, my estradiol (E2) levels came back at 42. Nurse Ann told me anything below 100 is great! My antral follicle count was good too. Antral follicles are small follicles that can be seen, measured and counted via ultrasound. The number of antral follicles visible on ultrasound at the start of a cycle is indicative of the relative number of follicles remaining in the ovary. Each follicle contains an immature egg that can potentially develop in the future.

The doctor changed my starting dose from 3 vials Bravelle and 2 vials Menopur to 3 vials Bravelle and 1 vial Menopur. I immediately questioned that, as my last injectable IUI cycle in September, I started on 5 vials. I wondered why this would be different, given that we would ideally want more follicles in an IVF cycle to produce mature eggs. Nurse Ann said he lowered it because of my antral follicle count. Then, the more I thought about it, I was OK with it. In my IUI cycle, we stimmed hard to get the right side (the side I have a tube on) to produce more since whatever the left side produced didn't matter. This time, everything matters since they will be removing the eggs from both ovaries. I start stimming Friday night, and continue on that dose Saturday and Sunday as well. I will head to the Clinic Monday morning for bloodwork.

Lucky for me, I have lots of fun socks (and holiday ones) to wear to all of my upcoming monitoring appointments. I love fun socks! Especially my purple striped knee socks! I might just save those for ER day!

Monday, November 28, 2011

Little victories lead to big successes!


Today, I took my last active birth control pill! Tomorrow morning at 8:00am I will be getting bloodwork to check my estradiol (E2) levels and an ultrasound to make sure everything is quiet in there and ready to be stimulated! If everything goes as planned, I will start stimming Friday evening!


In other (and not so important) news...

I went out shopping Thanksgiving Day evening with my mother. We lined up at Walmart around 8:30pm to get the Nintendo Wii. The Xbox Kinect was the "hot" item this year. But I can't play my favorite game, Super Mario Brothers, on the Xbox!


I had support group tonight. While I really did not want to go, I'm glad I did. The conversations in the parking lot after are as good as, if not better than, the conversations during group! (Insert photo of Jim Bob Duggar here.) Thanks ladies for always understanding.


I missed my acupuncture appointment today. I had an appointment at 4:00, and my acupuncturist is open until 7pm. I was about 20 minutes late to my appointment, and because I knew he was open until 7, I didn't worry about texting him to tell him I was running late. I arrived, and he was gone. Now, I need to try to cram it in on Wednesday before my chiropractor appointment. I hate feeling rushed.


Since I missed my acupuncture appointment, I went to the bar and had a nice, cold beer before support group.


It's currently 9:41, which is 41 minutes past my bedtime! Goodnight!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

All clear...

I went in for my 1:00pm mock transfer appointment today. First, I met with Nurse Kathy who went over all the medications and my calendar with me. then, I met with the doctor for the mock transfer. The process went very smoothly. No cramping or discomfort. No sign of anything (polyps, etc.) in my uterus. I got the all clear from the doctor!

I go back next Tuesday at 8:00am to see the doctor for my baseline sono and bloodwork. Then I start stims (225 units Bravelle and 150 units Menopur) on Friday, December 2nd. I go for bloodwork only on Monday, December 5th. Then I will wait to hear instructions that afternoon.

I can't believe all of this is so close. I'm so excited to get started.

In other news, my sinus and respiratory infections seem to be cleared up after this most recent round of antibiotics. I lost my voice last Thursday, but thankfully, it has mostly returned as of today. I see my primary doctor in about an hour for a follow-up.

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Steroids and antibiotics and sinus rinse, oh my!!!

Yes, I'm sick again. Since September, I've had a cold, the flu, a respiratory infection and now a sinus infection. I went to my primary doctor (again) today and was prescribed another round of steroids and stronger antibiotics. Also, I'll be doing a nasal rinse 3 times per day. I'm hoping all this helps this infection to clear up before I start stimming December 2nd! I go back to my primary next Tuesday afternoon so he can evaluate how this round of treatment is working. Fingers and toes crossed I'm well by then and can start this IVF round in good health!

Friday, November 11, 2011

The eagle has landed...



And here is everything tucked safely away in my bathroom vanity.

Medication I will be using during my IVF cycle: Bravelle, Menopur, Ganirelix, Ovidrel, Progesterone in Oil, Medrol, and Doxycycline.

I delivered the semen sample this morning for analysis. I can call the clinic in four days to get the results. Next up, mock transfer and injectable teach! A mock transfer process in IVF is simply when the doctor inserts a catheter into your uterus to measure the length and depth. He does this so that when it is time to actually deposit embryos into your uterus he will know what type of catheter to use and know where to place the embryos.

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Timeline...

I started the birth control pills (BCP) Tuesday, and thus far, I feel OK. (I normally feel like crap on BCP. The only difference I notice is I'm much more tired by the end of the day.) I am also on a daily prenatal vitamin and a baby aspirin. I will remain on Zoloft during this cycle as well. I am undecided yet if I will attempt to go off of it when (not if, but when) this cycle is successful. At this point in time, I'm far more interested in a happy, healthy pregnancy than I am the alternative. I guess, for that reason, I'm leaning towards staying on it. Especially given I'm on a low dose. My psychiatrist agrees the dose I'm on poses very low risk, if any, for any complications or problems.

My timeline is as follows:

November 22nd - mock transfer and injectable teach (I've been on Menopur, Bravelle and Ovidrel before. Ganirelix and Progesterone in Oil (PIO) are new.)

November 28th - take last active BCP

November 29th - baseline ultrasound and bloodwork

December 2nd - start stims (Bravelle and Menopur)

week of December 12th - ER and ET

week of December 26th - find out I'm pregnant!!!! Happy Holidays to us!

In non-IVF news, happy Veterans Day to all who have, and currently are, serving our country in an effort to protect the freedoms we have.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Let's do this!

I have officially begun the IVF process. I started the birth control and baby aspirin today. Surprisingly, I got a period yesterday. I was worried this would change my timeline, but it doesn't! I spoke with Kathy yesterday and have more details about my schedule. I met with Megan (my psychologist) tonight and feel really good about moving forward. I am in a good place and am ready to go!

I will post more about my schedule in the next day or so. I'm simply too tired to do it now!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

IUI vs. IVF

I knew that by deciding to write and publish a blog about my struggles to conceive, I was definitely putting myself out there. Naked, in a sense. I choose to divulge things that most people remain private about. However, I have found a certain peace by creating this blog...a certain level of understanding that I share with many of the women that read my blog or vise versa. This blog is a place for me to not only document my journey for my own benefit, but a way for me to share my journey with those close to me. That is why I will document my IVF process in great detail here for my friends and family, and other women going through IVF or thinking about it. Hopefully, my account of this cycle will help people to better understand the emotional, financial and physical commitment an IVF cycle truly presents to the couple.

Today, I will share information about the basic steps involved in an IVF cycle. The information below has been gathered from several sources.

What is IVF (in vitro fertilization)?

There are basically five steps in the IVF and embryo transfer process which include the following (from the American Pregnancy Association):
1. Monitor and stimulate the development of healthy egg(s) in the ovaries.
2. Collect the eggs.
3. Secure the sperm.
4. Combine the eggs and sperm together in the laboratory and provide the appropriate environment for fertilization and early embryo growth.
5. Transfer embryos into the uterus.

Prior to step 1, my husband and I have to complete blood tests (mandatory HIV and chromosomal panels) and another semen analysis. We have completed the bloodwork, and are looking to make an appointment to complete the semen analysis this week. Also, prior to starting the fertility meds, I will be on birth control beginning this Tuesday. (I'm not sure for how long, but given my proposed egg retrieval scheduled for the week of December 12, I can only assume, at this point, that I will not be on birth control much longer than 3 weeks. I believe I will find out more tomorrow when the nurse calls me.)

Step 1: Fertility medications are prescribed to control the timing of the egg ripening and to increase the chance of collecting multiple eggs during one of the woman's cycles. This is often referred to as ovulation induction. Multiple eggs are desired because some eggs will not develop or fertilize after retrieval. Egg development is monitored using ultrasound to examine the ovaries and blood test samples to check hormone levels.

I will be using several medications to achieve this step. Menopur is a highly purified preparation of naturally derived gonadotropins, called hMG. Menopur contains equal amounts of 2 kinds of hormonal activity: follicle-stimulating hormone (FSH), which helps stimulate egg production; and luteinizing hormone (LH), which helps the eggs mature and release (ovulate). Bravelle is a highly purified preparation of human follicle FSH and 2% luteinizing hormone (LH) activity. Ganirelix is an injectable gonadotropin-releasing hormone antagonist (GnRH antagonist). It is primarily used in assisted reproduction to control ovulation. The drug works by blocking the action of GnRH upon the pituitary, thus rapidly suppressing the production and action of LH and FSH. Finally, I will use Ovidrel to give the eggs a final boost to mature and prepare for ovulation, which will NOT occur as the doctor will go in prior to ovulation to remove my eggs via an Egg Retrieval (ER).

When the follicles are mature (determined by ultrasound measurements of follicle size and hormone measurements (estradiol levels - E2 - via bloodwork), the egg aspiration procedure is done to take the eggs out. About 15 to 20 mm diameter is generally consider a "mature" follicle.

Step 2: The eggs are retrieved through a surgical procedure which uses ultrasound imaging to guide a hollow needle through the pelvic cavity. Sedation and local anesthesia are provided to remove any discomfort that might be experienced. The eggs are removed from the ovaries using the hollow needle, which is called follicular aspiration. Some women may experience cramping on the day of retrieval, which usually subsides the following day; however, a feeling of fullness or pressure may last for several weeks following the procedure.

For a video of an egg retrieval, go HERE

Step 3: Sperm is obtained and prepared for combining with the eggs.

Step 4: In a process called insemination, the sperm and eggs are placed in incubators located in the laboratory which enables fertilization to occur. In some cases where fertilization is suspected to be low, intracytoplasmic sperm injection (ICSI) may be used. Through this procedure, a single sperm is injected directly into the egg in an attempt to achieve fertilization. The eggs are monitored to confirm that fertilization and cell division are taking place. Once this occurs, the fertilized eggs are considered embryos.

Step 5: The embryos are usually transferred into the woman's uterus anywhere from one to six days later, but most commonly it occurs between two to three days following egg retrieval. My clinic does 3 and 5 day transfers. The transfer process involves a speculum which is inserted into the vagina to expose the cervix. A predetermined number of embryos (for us, 2 is the magic number) are suspended in fluid and gently placed through a catheter into the womb. This process is often guided by ultrasound. The procedure is usually painless, but some women experience mild cramping.

For a video of an embryo transfer, go HERE

After the transfer, I will be started on Progesterone in Oil shots. PIO injections are given in the rear. Progesterone is a type of female hormone. This medication is similar to the progesterone that your body naturally makes. It is given to replace the hormone when your body is not making enough of it. Progesterone is needed to increase the receptivity of the endometrium for implantation of an embryo and is used as part of assisted reproductive technology (ART).

These steps are followed by rest and lots of waiting. Bloodwork will follow about 2 weeks later to see if pregnancy has been achieved.

How is this different from IUI (intrauterine insemination)? For my IUI cycles, I used injectable meds (Bravelle and Menopur) to stimulate follicle growth, and then would use Ovidrel to force ovulation. 36 hours later, I would take my husband's sample to the clinic with me, where they would wash and process it. Then, using a catheter threaded through my cervix, they would inject the sperm directly into my uterus. The main difference is that in IUI, they do not remove the female's eggs. Because I have tubal factor infertility (I have only one tube due to multiple ectopic pregnancies, and the health of my remaining tube may be compromised), IVF is our best chance. There is still a slight risk of ectopic pregnancy with IVF (approximately 1-3%), but it is minute compared to the chance during a natural or IUI cycle where the egg and sperm fertilize in the fallopian tube. IVF bypasses the tube, however, sometimes the embryo can "float" up into the tube after the transfer.

The information above was gathered from the American Pregnancy Association, as well as from information I have been provided by my particular clinic. I have been at the Buffalo Infertility and IVF Associates since July 2009. Initially, I was seen by Dr. Sperrazza. For my IVF, I will be seen by Dr. Sullivan and Dr. Crickard.

As I mentioned above, I will continue to document my journey. I hope that sharing my journey can one day help someone else. I follow several blogs, and have been touched by each person's individual story and journey. It is reassuring to know I am not the first (nor will I be the last) person to go through infertility and come out the other side OK!

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Pre-IVF steps...

This morning, my husband and I went to the local QUEST office to have his blood drawn (mandatory HIV and chromosomal "stuff"). (I had mine all drawn yesterday morning.) For those of you who know my husband well, you know he can be difficult when being asked to do something he doesn't want to do. He complied, and it went smoothly. I told him late last night we needed to go for bloodwork this morning (that way he did not have too long to stress about it). This morning, when I woke up, I immediately got ready to leave the house. He followed suit. And off we went...

The next step is to have another semen analysis (at the Andrology Lab at the clinic). Our last one was a couple years ago at a QUEST lab. Apparently, the Clinic likes to do their own when a couple is beginning the IVF process. So, we will get that done and then we will be all set. My husband's "job" will be done until the week of the Egg Retrieval (ER) in December! The fun will begin for me a couple weeks before that!

I'm looking forward to getting my calendar for this cycle when I talk to the nurse on Monday. I'm starting to feel better and better about this decision!

Friday, November 4, 2011

The Plan

I spoke with IVF nurse Kathy yesterday and learned a little more about my IVF cycle. I went for bloodwork this morning and will start birth control pills on Tuesday. I have to get my husband to the office or a lab to get bloodwork done too. Then, when I start stimming using the Antagonist Protocol, I will be injecting Bravelle, Menopur, Ganirelix, Ovidrel, and Progesterone in Oil (PIO). For my friends not well-versed in the lanuguage of IVF, I will explain more in future posts.

Kathy told me she will call me Monday with more information about my calendar. But, as it stands, it looks like my egg retrieval (ER) and embryo transfer (ET) will be the week of December 12th. I'm anxious to talk to her and learn more about when I will end birth control (BC), start stimming, and so forth. Day by day, I'm feeling better about this decision.

From here on out during my IVF journey, I've decided I only have room for positivity in my life! So, if you have nothing positive to say to me, please don't say anything at all! :) While I certainly need to be realistic, I really need my mind to be in a positive place. And I count on my friends and family to help with that! So, I appreciate all the positivity I can get in the weeks to come! I'm lucky to have so many people on my side and hoping and praying for the best for my husband and I!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

On the road again...

I met with an IVF doctor at my Clinic on Monday. I left the consult feeling informed and excited at the possibility of starting an IVF cycle. The doctor feels given our history and diagnosis of tubal factor infertility that we have a great chance at success with IVF! I was even more excited to know that we could start right away and finish this calendar year (prior to them closing the IVF lab the last two weeks of December, and prior to the busy weeks in January before our Drama Club production).

I heard from a nurse today, and I need to call back tomorrow. I wanted to talk with my husband about this one more time, and we decided to go forward. It is a huge commitment (emotionally, physically, and financially). I need to go into this with a realistic, positive attitude, and much needed support from friends and family.

Several friends and people who know what we are going through have asked what the difference is between what we've been doing (IUI) and IVF. While there are several similarities, there are some big differences too. I will share more about that in future posts. Of course, I anticipate learning a lot more about IVF while going through this process. (I have several friends who have completed IVF cycles, so I know quite a bit already. But there is ALWAYS more to learn!)

I've been very lucky to have so much support through my two ectopics and my recent chemical pregnancy. I am thankful I will have continued support during this IVF cycle. I know I will need it.

So, the plan is to call and talk to the nurse tomorrow. I assume at that time I will learn more about the timeframe (calendar) and what meds we will use (IVF requires a few more medications and injections than injectable IUI), etc. I plan on making an appointment with my psychologist to be sure I am tending to my emotional needs during this stressful time. I also plan to continue acupuncture. I want every possible advantage during this cycle!