...add vodka!!

I'm over my hissy fit about being postponed, and can talk about it more rationally now. Initially, with just cause, I was very upset and sad. After stewing on it overnight, and with the help from my best friend who always looks for the positive side to a crappy situation, I am in a much better place.

While many suspect I've been canceled due to my "yeasty" lady bits, that is not the case. I'm happy to report I finished my Monistat last night and am feeling much relief.

I actually was postponed because of some paperwork confusion related to a grant that I qualified for. I don't fully understand what happened; all I know is that because of this confusion, I can't start today. I spoke to Nurse Ann yesterday around 3pm who broke the news to me. She was upset and felt terrible having to be the one to tell me. However, we reconfigured everything and I have my new calendar all worked out. Things will hopefully go down like this:

I will restart BCP Saturday (tomorrow) regardless of the fact that I have not had a period since stopping them Monday. I will continue BCP through December 26th. At 8:20am on Wednesday, December 28th I will go for my baseline. (This is all assuming everything is straightened out by then. I feel confident it will be.) I will start the stims Friday December 30th. ER and ET will fall the week of January 9th.

While this stresses me out for a couple reasons, there are definitely a couple of advantages too. First, I am stressed about everything being in January, the month during which our school play falls. I am a Drama Club advisor, and January is a busy, busy time for me. I need to let that go and come to terms with the fact that my IVF is more important. Also, I am anxious about the weather in Buffalo in January. My husband is snow-plowing this year. If the weather is bad that week and he has to go out plowing, it could add additional stress to the situation. While my husband reassured me the other day that this cycle takes priority, I know it stresses him out too.

On the plus side, if I were to when I get pregnant in January, I would have an early October due date. Being OCD like I am, this would allow me to start the school year and get everything in order for my students and sub. Whereas, if I were to get pregnant this month, I would likely miss the start of the school year and come back to a huge mess! I do not need that anxiety-inducing situation! Secondly, my husband's work schedule starts to lighten up in the fall, which would allow him to be home more to help me and enjoy our baby. And by the time I were to go back to work, he would be just about finishing up for the season, and be able to be home with our child.

So, in the end, this isn't such a horrible situation. I've dealt with much more disappointing news in the past. This is not a big deal (or so I keep telling myself!).

Also on the plus side, I don't have to give up my wine yet! I've recently become quite addicted to Moscato. It is a white wine that is a little sweet and a little fizzy. Delicious. I've also been enjoying lemonade lately. So, in honor of my blog's title, I think I may add some vodka to these lemons that life just handed me!